It's been barely 48 hours since I committed to reading the Bible in 90 days and I'm already wondering if I made a mistake. Pretty much anyone I've told about this task is completely surprised I'm doing it and I think most of them have doubts I'll be successful - myself included. Why am I having such an extreme reaction to committing to something I'll be doing by myself in the privacy of my own life?
I've taken on several other major challenges in the recent past and didn't have a doubt about it after I decided. Graduate school, studying business no less, was a huge undertaking and didn't provoke this kind of second-guessing. Running a marathon, which less than 1% of the world's population has successfully done, did not elicit this kind of reaction from me once I registered. Something else is definitely going on here. Will I be able to confront it?
I'm definitely not the touchy-feely type of person. My default emotion is anger. If you hug me, you'll likely get a stiff body in response. Could it be that I'm afraid that by doing this, I will tap into an emotion I am not comfortable with? Or what if I complete this entire endeavor and find myself not changed at all? Which is worse?
Oh man, what have I done?
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